So my boss wants to put me in charge of things as he is moving up to a managerial position. Actually, he has been in his new position for months but left his old position empty, absorbing all the work himself. Part of it was because the company wasn't opening up the spot and another part was because - God only knows why - he enjoys working so very much.
By the way, the position is junior management - has it ever bothered you, in this country, the chain of command is clerk-officer-executive-manager-HOD-COO-CEO? Whereas in US, it's like staff-manager-executive-CEO? I mean, the 'executive' post differs greatly in rank and hierarchy between us and US?.. Anyway, I would be in charge of 16 people, some of them twice my age. The company, being its sluggish and lethargic self, still has not issued an official offer (genuinely feels they're fucking with me) but has transferred some responsibilities to me, like approving leave requests, overtime, training etc. Things which I am so reluctant to do, but do anyway due to being forced by the boss, whose assurances that I'll be confirmed in the position soon makes the situation more like a 'carrot and stick'. That's fine, cos I've been with the man for so long to know he would never fuck me over or run off when shit hits the fan. Nor will he ever leave this company, he loves it too fucking much, despite annually announcing he wants to leave. He kind of trained me to be more accountable and responsible, and I think those are noble traits that should be more prevalent, especially among us, Asians, who are known to ignore the problem rather than addressing, let alone fixing it. Worst, we walk away from our own mess with the hope that somebody else would take care of it. That 'somebody else' has too often been yours truly so if you do this, FUCK YOU.
The new role has also put me under more stress lately. Now I need to worry about the people too, rather than just the job. And I was already not on good terms with a few of them before. Specifically, there's this one pretentious piece of shit with a big mouth who also thinks that the world revolves around him and never does a thing I ask him to. And like any douchebag these days, he also capitalises on religion like it's commodity, with his fake-ass religious status updates and being the imam for prayers. Given the choice, I will happily send him on his way to be another poor man's headache, but alas. This kind of shit will definitely be the biggest chip on my shoulder for the rest of my tenure - which is, hopefully just 2-2/12 years. Planning to move on to another company or at least, another position, preferably in another department. Either way, but the aim is to get a bigger paycheck. Speaking of which, I hate to say this, but my current pay is RM...... you don't have to know, but the amount is laughable bordering on darkly comedic. A colleague left for a company next door last year and gained 3x my salary. If you wonder why I didn't join him and still stick with my current job, it's 'cos I got another thing unsettled between this company and I. Hopefully, it can be done the latest in 2 months since I'm also planning a long vacation by then.
Oh and yes, happy new year 2018. How was your 2017? Mine was full of learning how to swear and fucking swearing. Last year also marked another year, 6th in the row now, for underachieving. Let's see if I'm gonna bloody break the chain by 2018, or nah. By the look of it, quite likely since I've actually been more organised this year, and because I realise that acting on it rather than bitching and doing nothing can make things happen. Who knows, maybe it'll cure my midnight panic attacks too!
So til then, cheers!
Junid
"Some people get their kicks stompin' on a dream" - some Italian guy
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