Normally, I'd be in a great mood when xmas time comes around.
Not that I celebrate, but it marks the start of the year-end break and the coming of the new year.
I'd be in my hometown with my family and friends making up for all the time of the year we've been away from each other.
Plus, it's wet season and especially in the Pantai Timur, the heavens would open up, giving us the perfect weather for us to cool down in the final days of the year. Some years, it opens up maybe too much and some poor families would be forced to temporarily leave their inundated homes for flood shelters.
These past few years, it's been different. This period has become the most dreadful of the year for me. Contrary to normal jobs at normal companies, ours get even busier come year end. People travel a hell lot more during this season and we're forced to make sure they get to their destinations without delay. And that means I no longer have the luxury to enjoy this period with loved ones. Worse, most of my colleagues would still be on holidays, including my boss who celebrates xmas. And that means I'm left with the burden to attend crisis management meetings and all the bs stuff that wouldn't have been necessary on a normal weekday.
I hate my job. I regret following along when my Head of Department asked me to take on the role. I hate to think that despite my best attempts, I'm still stuck here doing stuff I don't like with people I don't really like. I hate to think that my life is being robbed from me and every passing day, I lose precious time to the job rather than to the things and with the people I love the most.
I know what people are thinking, I'm such a Grinch.
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