First Trip 2023

As the first trip of 2023, took an impromptu drive to Tangkak this weekend. Booked a hotel in Melaka on Friday, left office early to collect my new passport, and then went home to pack.

Plan was to stay in Melaka for 3d2n and go to a wedding of a friend at a Felda in Tangkak on Saturday. I took into account that eventhough there was no class that day, there was a test at 12.30pm which I assumed I could finish by 1pm and head to Tangkak afterwards ETA 2.15pm latest. However, despite leaving on time, I only managed to reach the Felda at 2.45pm. Worse, I actually got to the wrong wedding and had to ask my way around until I found the friend's house. By the time I reached the right address, it was close to 3pm and not many guests left. It was a scorching afternoon so I decided not to stay for long and left after about an hour and respectfully declined to take pictures with the bride and groom.

I confess that the main reason I decided to go to the wedding despite the distance and limited time was because I expected to see a dear female friend. She left for Singapore about 2 months ago and I was hoping we could catch up. I didn't know if she was coming but took the chances anyway. Sadly, she came but had left some time before my arrival.

Because of that, the drive back to Melaka was dreadful. The disappointment of missing her, and made worse by attending the wedding alone while the rest of the guests who were in fact my juniors during training that came with their spouses and kids had left me despondent.

She was a dear friend because despite the complicated nature of our friendship (I can't yet put this properly into words), she was the only one who I could really talk to on an emotional level. And although I doubt if she feels the same way with me, I have a strong feeling that she IS the one.

Anyway, once I got back to the hotel in Melaka, I spent the whole night in the room reflecting. And I did the same on my way back to Sepang this morning. 

So upon reflection, I'm setting a target to get into a relationship this year. Will start seriously looking at and considering options. I never planned to spend the rest of my life alone. It's just that I've been caught up with too much stuff that I never got around to seriously finding someone. That, and also my natural uneasiness with the opposite gender (LOL). When I was in kindergarten, I told my parents I hated girls for no apparent reason apart from finding them repulsive (I have been dumb since I was young).

At 31, socialising has become even harder for me what with the other guys already being married and most with kids. My social environment has drastically changed and I'm sticking out like a sore thumb in it.

And this is unrelated, but I also plan to do an full settlement for my car loan so that I can get the rebate while freeing up my monthly commitments.

So there I have it, 2023 goals sorted.

As with the dear female friend,

I think it's time to move on for the final time.