NEED A NEW JOB UPDATE

There's no update, really. Nothing substantial yet to share.

Lamenting the fact that none of the companies that I've applied for come back to me with positive news.Two companies sent an e-mail saying they wouldn't move forward with my applications. Decent enough since all the rest haven't even bothered to respond.

I blame it on myself. Many companies, MNCs too require a bachelor's degree for jobs at my level. I screwed that one up massively when I decided not to go to uni. But to also be fair, my options were s#it back then.

So here I am, day 6 of looking for a job.

NEED A NEW JOB

Used to work with great bosses who supported and encouraged growth. Would take a bullet for them because I knew they would do the same for me. For a while, things were running great and I was more than happy to be part of the team. But here's a thing about great people, they don't stick around for long. They do their job, oftentimes quietly and let the results speak for themselves, and go on to the next challenge. 

My current boss sucks and the complete opposite of the above. And not just him cause this looks very much like it runs wide and deep.

Very serious problem occurred recently and the handling has been extremely poor. I'm beginning to think there would be a massive cover-up soon. Good people will be victimised.

I DO NOT  want to be here for when the proverbial shit hits the fan. Will never forgive myself for being part of a rotten system. Disturbs me to the very core. Can't have it on my conscience. I promise if the worst happens, will help those affected get on their feet. Least I could do for now.

URGENTLY NEED A NEW JOB NOW. 

Cleaned up the room and set up my PC

This is really just a test on my new keyboard. Logitech K120.. cheap, RM24.90 from Shopee. It feels great to type on an old school keyboard. The clacking sounds alone make this worth it.

Anyway, I really did clean up my room and spent quite a lot more than I expected to bring in some furniture and a monitor. The latter is perhaps one of the best things I have spent my money on for quite some time cos Jeezus I never realised I badly needed one. All those movies and shows that went to waste cos I never bothered to invest on a sweet screen.

Seriously, it's so good to see things from a new perspective display. Everything just looks a hell lot better in 21.5 inch IPS panel. Compared to the 13 in I was used to having.

I'll write more on this newfound interest in home improvement. Til then, I'll be browsing new movies to watch on this monitor.

Oh goodness I don't feel to stop yet cos I wanna hear more of these clacking sounds.

But yeah gotta try get some sleep. Tomorrow's gonna be another long day.

Good night/

Junid: A decade after

Oh boy has it really been 10 years?

I remember starting this blog back in May 2011. I was living with my batch mates in that 3 bedroom apartment in Kelana Jaya. Paradigm Mall was under construction and opened some months later.

In 2011, the blog scene was still pretty much alive. Almost every friend I knew had a blog. Many did it to earn some bucks, some others just used it for social media. Yeap, social media used to be Facebook and blogs, mainly. People would pour out their thoughts, feelings, and share their life and love. In a way, it helped people articulate what's in their minds and hearts into words. Then, Twitter and Instagram started to gain traction and so began the age of microblogging and the decline of (macro-?) blogging. Much later we had Youtubers doing vlogs and now we have Tiktokkers doing stupid things for fun. Wait a minute.. have we regressed?

By the way, Kelana Jaya was my second dwelling in Selangor. The first was Ara Damansara, specifically Sri Ara Apartment. Seven of us lived in a cramped, 3 bedroom apartment and we had to be in our beds by 11pm every day which was super ridiculous for a bunch of late-teen adults teeming with energy and the spirit to rebel. But then again, our training centre was run by the ex-Air Force folks so discipline, or an appearance of it, was the mantra. It was stupid tho, seriously, we had roll-calls every morning and evening and kawad kaki every Saturday - attendance mandatory! Let's be honest, nobody there signed up for military service. To this day, I still hate the Air Force (and to some extent, the military) due to that bad experience. Things only got a whole lot better when we complained about amongst other things, the subpar living conditions, that our sponsor took notice and got us out of there and gave us the unit at Kelana Sentral Apartment.

In 10 years, a lot have happened. I've moved for another 5 times since then. Now I live in Sepang, got a decent job (2015), my own car (2020), although I still haven't settled down on my own place, but I am working on that.

About the only thing that hasn't changed is my relationship status. This year will mark the 29th year of me being in ZERO relationship. That's right, I've been single my whole life. And before people tell me that it's okay to be single, to be on our own etc, I disagree. Being single is not a choice that anybody would make on their own volition, not less me. You hear people say that because they have gone through it long enough that they've become conditioned to it and surrendered and then tried to rationalise it (the "love yourself" movement, etc). At least that's why I think, because I'm not giving up on this anytime soon. It makes me feel worse every time I feel down and mopey and there is nobody to pick me up or give their shoulders for me to cry on. IT SUCKS AND MAKES ME AWFUL. But what can I do? Already I've got pals my age who are also single, telling me that this is our fate, to accept it and that they've accepted it and every time, I have to defy them and tell them that this cannot be our life.

Over the years, I have mentioned here the few instances of girls I have met and became infatuated with. When I say few, that is true, there is very few people that I've ever become attracted to. It's extremely rare for a person to catch my attention or make me catch feelings for. And this is perhaps the problem that I need to deal with. Maybe I need to re-calibrate my expectations (this is serious BTW, I really need to start seeing people).

Sorry to digress. (Is anyone even reading? :laughs:)

Coming back to the topic, yes, I intend to keep this blog updated.

I read my past posts and a lot of them sound a lot more stupid than when I wrote them, some don't even have structure and the rest are ridden with grammatical errors. But who cares, right? I'm not writing for the Pulitzer here.

Kids these days probably do not know blogspot and wordpress and how big they once were. That's just the passage of time. That's the way we live. Things change. WE change. No way denying or stopping that.

I only hope that good things will happen soon. Who knows, next time I write this, I'd be doing it with my loved one by my side? Or maybe, on the cusp of a much needed career move? Or maybe, from my own house? We can always wish that change, however inevitable, will always be the better for us right? 

And as I said, I will keep reporting what's going on. Hoping that Google doesn't pull the plug on blogspot in the near future. Or else, catch me on TikTok.

Till the next one.

p/s: I am trying very hard to woo this girl at work. Work AND love? It IS extremely complicated, I know. But any kind soul who happens to be reading this, PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. :)

Re Current Affairs

Blogspot used to be a hotbed for the Malaysian alternative media. I used to read a lot of blogs discussing politics and current affairs in the mid-2000s.

But nowadays, Facebook and Twitter have given new, better, and wide-reaching space to the political pundits and even political leaders alike.

Anyway, I'm planning to write long on some issues that I simply am too lazy to start now.

But here's a thought. Lately, the HM Agong has been involved, and occassionally involved himself in politics. It makes me think if there had been any Agong in the past who had been as present and active in politics as the current Agong, al-Sultan Abdullah.

His Majesty's immediate predecessor, despite his eventual abdication which "perhaps" was a result of high-level politics, did not however get too involved in politics throughout his shorter than usual tenure. Granted, those were the days when the grand old party reigned supreme. Apart from some occassional jostling among politicians, that government was very strong & stable. By the way, did anyone notice he never went for an official state visit?

The Agong before that was already very old when he ascended the throne. In fact, it was his second outing as Supreme Ruler as he had reigned for the first time 40 years prior. And the government was also very strong & stable.

However, the Agong before that, Tuanku Mizan was quite involved in politics. As a matter of fact, no other Agong as far as I know who had ever issued a direct titah (royal address) to the people. Remember when His Majesty issued the titah khas (special royal address) on the eve of the Bersih 2.0 rally? Normally, HM Agong conveyed his wishes via a communique ie press statement from his office (signed off by a royal household official) to address the people. But Tuanku Mizan issued a direct titah using the first person 'Beta' (I), as opposed to Seri Paduka Baginda (His Majesty) as normally would be for press statements issued by the Agong's office. And although there were no strong words being used at all, it was issued late at night, which made it look very serious and urgent, or at least that's what the Bersih organisers saw that they felt compelled to ask for His Majesty's audience the very next day. And see His Majesty they did. And they obeyed His Majesty's orders to follow the rules and procedures to organise the rally peacefully.

Ironically, Tuanku Mizan who's now back ruling his home state as Sultan Mizan, also appears to be one of the more quiet royals in the country. But alas, when the usually quiet man voices out, you better listen.