Raya this year is of course very different.
No balik kampung, no open houses, and most importantly for me, no nasi minyak or nasi kuning or nasi dagang.
But that didn't stop me from hauling some friends up to accompany me to some raya visits. Still in adherence to the MCO SOP, of course.
Well, actually we visited just two houses. Plus an hour-long stop at Starbucks. The queue was very long, and that included the drive-thru. I insisted to order at the counter, on the off chance that the barista was cute girl, but alas. And at the end, we realised it was faster to take the drive-thru.
Got back home at dusk. The moment I stepped into my room of our rented house, I felt the sudden and crushing tiredness, but mostly, loneliness.
I really hope that this is my last raya being alone or lonely. I really hope that she returns my feelings. I really hope that she sees that I'm worth all the troubles and all the time in the world. I really hope that she'd have the patience of a saint, tho she isn't, and neither is me. I really hope that we can make it work, no matter how big the odds are stacked against us.
And if that's too much to ask for, I pray for God to send me someone just like her in every way.
AMEN
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