I was on the flight from JB to KL last night. I arrived at Senai Airport from Singapore after my overnight stay at the city. There should be a dedicated post for that but this post shall precede for my feelings must be let known.
I met a girl.
Not the prettiest I've ever seen nor was she the sexiest. In fact to go strictly by figure, she may have fared quite far off from the yardstick, which in others' books, means she isn't someone suitable for a magazine cover.
To put it yet simpler, she is just an ordinary girl.
Nothing special about her but her calm, collected, soothing and beautiful look on the face I so wanted to see even closer and longer if not for the decency I had to observe. Although, I often peeked when she wasn't looking throughout the flight. The act that I'm not sure was reciprocated.
But here's the thing. We didn't even talk. We didn't learn each other's name. And that is the only thing I so regret now.
So there goes an angel. Like a star engulfed in the dark skies of anonymity. The star that twinkled so gracefully though not brightly.
dude, goddamn u shouldve just walked up and said hi, regret is the worse thing one can feel, you know that thought, what if i just said 'hi', its ok to get shot down, and the more u get shot down the more confident ud feel, the worse thing could happen is that she could snub you, ive gone up and talked to quite a few girls myself, but there are a longer list of which i didnt, and im so full of regret, sheesh, i wish i wasnt over 30, arghghhhhh!. bro, dalam hati ada taman ni. lol just kidding. when it comes to kaum hawa, just blast your way or power urself thru, u may come off as an idiot or a cute idiot, 1/1000 cute idiot might just be the thing ud hear, lol, damn my odds its gotta be better then that lol.
ReplyDeletehaha bro u may have realised i never talked about girls here.many sentiments were made known but never love because all i thought about was having fun so committing in a relationship might interrupt my playful ventures therefore i had unconsciously passed any chance of falling in love in favour of enjoying life with friends.thus you are right,that regret is indeed the worst thing i can feel right now,after i already missed on someone i never had such feeling for. advice taken bro, next time i wouldnt hesitate to muster every courage i have to at least say a little 'hi'.
Deletefor the time being tho, from what you said,im glad that im not alone in this, but of course at some point in life, sooner or later, (hopefully and prayfully) we will settle down right? :)
you know you're right just keep pluggin away, i just got out of a i dont even know what to call it kinda realtionship, never allowed myself to be vulnerable,i just let go of all my principled crap and voulnteered stupidity, and in the end i got hurt, but heck being hurt is part of it all i guess, just gotta find the right one, my point being dont let friends or keadaan discourage you, god made man and woman for a reason, somehow she completes you dude, u just need to find her, adeh memang ada taman la bro, sedih aku ni hahahahehehahah.
Deletesettling down, well u gotta try to pull that 3-4 years relationship crap or just jump in with both feet and yell yeeeehaaa. lol
write more on women dude best subject in the friggin world, you'll never understand em, friends are overated as you get older, fun? well havin that significant other makes going to lunch fun, thats what love is dude. volunteered stupidity my definition atleast, but u just need to control your stupidity, thats where friends come in. next time you get shot by an arrow again make sure u say 'hi' onnot i slap you! lol. you're not alone dude dont worry. just make sure u dont get in a rut or a dry spell, went on being solo for 4 years at one time, it was a blur, but oh so many regrets rofl.