Things aren't really going in my way nowadays. Almost everyday I wake up to live another boring and a bit (currently) frustrating life.
And almost every night I feel not like sleeping just to see if the day can get any good at the end, which never does happen.
It's a vicious cycle. I'm not saying I've given up, though I kind of a few months back, costing me two F results in hand. By giving up I mean in studies. Not because it's hard, not at all, considering my line of engineering requires no actual critical thinking. But I just found it boring, so I kind of stopped taking in. Instead, I spent time on movies and TV series (Family Guy fan here). Furthermore, I don't want to be a tool, or a human wiki. You know, people who you can ask stuff or make use of. Who are married to their laptops and books.
Thing is, I feel underachieving. In fact, I feel deprived of stuff to do. I live a day no different than the other. Wake up, go to class, do some social, eat, sleep, eat, a bit of listening to the increasingly boring lectures, go home, get online, eat, and sleep. Sadly and unfortunately, the weekends are no different. I can assure you there's not any thrill in between.
I've often said I want to change my life before I hit the 20s. Apparently, very little progress, if any, I've made since I last said I want to become awesome.
I don't know what's wrong. Perhaps I think and worry too much.
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