Things are not going good at work.
Well, to be fair, they RARELY are.
But this time, they ESPECIALLY are when my job is at stake.
My boss asked me to fill a different role that I am currently struggling in. Hiring a new guy for that spot was out of the question due to the company's current predicament - all hiring frozen.
It sucks because I'm somewhat demoted to being someone's number 2 in this role. The previous one, I was the top guy doing that work in this department. No managers or even head of department could question me or the team I led.
And going back to my previous role is although tempting, not really feasible given I have a longstanding animosity with the guy who currently heads the section. He's a bigot - of the kind you find at neighbourhood mosques with long beard and a skull cap. Soft spoken at most times but talks about and plots against you behind your back. And he hates Chinese which also makes him a hypocrite (I think) since he used to work with a Chinese (our previous big boss) and she thought he was a the kindest guy in the department. God I fucking hate that guy.
This, on top, of the anxiety over my job security over the next couple months. I see slim hopes the restructuring is going to work and even if it does, not as successful as planned. And it's almost impossible to go forward with reducing capacity without reducing headcounts. I mean, that would defeat the purpose. Any school kid knows that.
I just hope I somehow slip through.
Fuck me. Fuck. Me.
