Sometimes, I look back and wonder how things would have played out had I done some things differently. I'd take a gander at the past and the people and relationships and how there are to me today, often in contrast. Most of the times, I just regret a lot of things.
Many friends are no longer friends and a lot more are not as close as they were. Mostly, we just broke apart because I just felt like it. Someone told me I seem to hold and drop friends at will, and I think he's right.
Nowadays, with regards to relationships, I just take them as they come. People say I'm anti-social and repulsive, but really, I'm just not interested. I've also got a few former friends who tried to approach me and reconnect, all ignored. Again, it's just not in my interests to rebuild the burnt bridges.
Maybe I'll end up alone, and I've come to terms with that. Shikata ga nai. Best I could do is try not to feel lonely in that solitude.
ps : not depressed, simply being at peace with life.
