You don't know the power of the..err, window shopping (?)

Went out to just accompany a friend who wanted to buy something.

"Yes, let's go out but no buying anything, money is left little already to last until the 30th."

Was somehow lured into Toys R Us.

Saw a rack of Star Wars stuff.

Ended up spending my 1-week food budget.

How did that even happen?

SPM

I took my SPM in 2009. It was dreadful. Thinking back I wonder how I managed to pull myself together going thru the mounting pressure. First there was the hectic rush for the forgotten facts and formulae, then the ambient tense building up. But what bothered me quite much was the black-out at my block on the last days the semester (which were a few days into SPM). Just something I didn't want to remember my final moments at school with.

Most of us boarders also skipped the Eid Adha holiday that year since it interfered with the exam schedule. Good God the school knew how to keep us sane. Cows were slaughtered and thus a large buffet spread. The only time the dining hall knew to cook good food instead of the usual gulag-approved dish I guess.

All boys and no girls did help I think, cause at least none of us broke down at the most challenging times (though I'm pretty sure every one of us did, but too man to show it out).

Awaiting the results, I knew I wouldn't perform brilliantly that I just took it calm. I did have a dream a few nights before the announcement though, that I would get it all right except for one. It was right. It was biology. Still, I picked up the results with only a tinge of thrill. Maybe it's because of the numerous pre-exam tests I took that I treated my SPM results in equal nonchalance.

Nevertheless we made way into the top 10 public schools that year, although far from our number one target and a lil bit dropping from the previous year.

So for the SPM dudes tomorrow is your day guys. You screwed it up, doesn't matter cos I'm sure you yourself know that smart people don't come from school. Though most of them do. And be yourself, scrap the dogma and indoctrination. I don't know if that crappy advice helps, but hey don't listen to me, listen to your intuition.

P/s : heard that DPM Muhyiddin is announcing the results at our school tomorrow, a bright hint that ASiS may have well overtaken SASER this year as the numero uno. If it's true, then I guess the 8 years of trying and failing has finally come to fruition. Let's just wait for tomorrow.

Update : 1. Nah, in fact the 2009 record remains unchallenged. Also, the grand ole schools, the likes of MCKK, STAR, SDAR, have pitched up quite fairly to the upper spots. Interesting.

2. Principal Idrus may disagree to the notion that we should aim for the top spot, since he said that the performance put up by us is far more important. Agree sir, and we should stop obsessing to the academic, but rather focusing more in other areas of character building.

Self delusion

Suddenly what I hold firm to is shaken to the roots.

Have you ever questioned everything? Think of the unthinkable? Because I do right now.

Who am I actually? Why am I here? What if I stop doing stuff I never miss?
How do I actually justify myself? When is this ending or is it perpetual? Where am I heading?

Funny how our mind navigates thru every thinkable space while our heart stagnates to the same ol belief.

iOS 5.1

What's with the camera shortcut? I think Apple better sticks with the old unlock swipe design. Now it's camera shortcut. Next they may cram in mail, then Fb, then Twitter shortcuts.

God forbid.

Somehow I've a bad hunch on this and the slow yet imminent possible departure from the 'minimalist' way Steve Jobs himself paved.

p/s : I'm eyeing an upgrade. I feel inferior with only iPod to toy with while others have iPhones and iPads.

p/s/s : I think my battery life improved quite significantly with iOS 5.1.